Sad Love (9 page)

“Baby I
’m making you dinner, can you wait like ten minutes?”

She looked at him and ran into the bathroom and threw up.
This sucks
she thought.

He pulled her hair back and rubbed her shoulders, “You need anything?”

“Crackers,” she snapped and grabbed them and walked outside.

“Tessa, talk to me,” he said from behind her with a smile in his voice.

“Where did you go?” she asked and shoved a cracker in her mouth.

“Shopping I told you that,” he said quietly. “I
’ve told you I wouldn’t hurt you again. I’m here Tessa, all in Baby. You need to start trusting me again.”

“Lucas I fee
l like garbage all the time, I’m either tired or sick. And then I think about how much I miss you. And as far as making you happy, I can’t when I feel like this and then I say things that either hurt you, or piss you off. And I just feel awful, and it makes me lash out more and I don’t mean it. I just don’t know what the hell is wrong with me.”

He smiled as she rambled on and on
and then laughed, “I knew you’d be fun.”

“It’s not funny,” she scowled
.

“Okay I’m sorry. Let’s go eat dinner,” he kissed her cheek and went inside.

She went to the bathroom and brushed her teeth and washed her face. She walked into the dinning room there were flowers and candles, it was sweet very sweet. She smiled as she looked up and he carried dinner in.

She smiled at him, “Thank you
Lucas, I’m sorry.”

He kissed her and set her plate down. She looked at the chicken, and he watched her face. She was trying to hide th
e disgust, and laughed and he took the plate and brought it out to the kitchen. He brought her in a new plate with crackers and a glass of milk.

“I am so sorry, it looked really great,” she said quietly.

He laughed, “Really?”

She smiled, “Sorry.”

She fell asleep on the couch next to him, and he grabbed one of the baby books off the coffee table.

"Hi," she said and kissed his cheek.

“Hello baby,” he said and smiled, “You look better, I mean not that you looked bad, you just…”

“
Lucas I have two perfectly good eyes’ I know how awful I’ve looked,” she laughed.”But right now, I feel a lot better.”

“Good,” he grabbed the book, “It says here you are supposed to start feeling better at the end of the first trimester and you,
“she kissed him.

“I fee
l good right now,” she kissed him again.

“Oh, are you…”
she kissed him again.

“Lucas will you be quiet,”
she laughed.

“Really?” he asked and his eyes
green eyes danced.

She smiled and shook her head
up and down. She rubbed down his stomach and under the waistband of his running pants, “That was quick.”

Lucas’s breath hitched, “Yeah.”

She wiggled out of her pants as she stroked him, his hand was up her shirt gently kneading her breast and she climbed on his lap, holding him in her hand she gently eased down on him, “Damn Baby.”

His mouth crashed over hers as she rode him.

When they had finished they went upstairs. They took a shower and got into bed.

“Now you look better,” she laughed.

“It’s been a rough couple weeks,” Lucas laughed, “You alright?”

“Yes
, I just have to go to the bathroom,” she whispered.

She came out and snuggled into him and fell asleep.

~

She woke up and ran downstairs. He was warming up milk for oatmeal.

“Good morning,” she hugged him. “Do you want to go for a run?”

“Are you sure?”
Lucas asked.

“I feel great right now, please,” she smiled and jumped up and down.

“How about a walk?” he said knowing it would piss her off.

“Fine,” she stomped
.

They
held hands as they walked and talked about nothing and everything. Every time she walked faster he found a way to slow her down.

“What do you want to do today?” he asked smiling at her
as they walked in the house.

“You,” she
laughed and squeezed his ass.

“Doesn’t it worry you?” he grinned
.

“No,” she laughed. “I mean we could wait for six more months if you like?
Lucas check out my boobs, they have grown.” She lifted her shirt.

“Yes they have,” he laughed.

“So I want to invite a bunch of people over tomorrow for your birthday, can we?”

“If you want t
o,” he looked at her and smiled.

“Well
, it’s your birthday. What do you want to do?”

He smiled and looked at her mouth, “Whatever as long as it’s with you.”

She shook her head and laughed, “Please help me out here Lucas.”

“I think inviting some people over would be good, but what if you spend the night in the bathroom
?” he asked. “You ready for all those questions baby?”

“No, I don’t know. It’s your birthday Lucas please tell m
e what you want to do,” she pleaded.

“I want to spend it with you,” he smiled.

~

He woke in the morning to Tessa under the covers.

“Damn, what’s going on baby?” he asked, “I thought this was never an option again.”

He laid back and enjoyed.

“Happy birthday Lucas,” she said as she emerged from under the covers.

“Ye
s it is,” he hugged her and laughed lazily.

“Okay I am going to take you to enjoy one of my favorite things ever, besides you of course,” she smiled. “Let’s shower.”

She was full of energy again and he was glad she was feeling better,
real glad
.

~

They walked into the nail salon.

“You're seriously goin
g to make me do this?”

“You will lo
ve it,” she held his hand tighter.

When they finished
and were walking out the door Tessa smiled at Lucas, “Did you like it?”

“I don’t want to answer that.”

“Why?” Tessa laughed.

“Because if I admit I do
, I’m afraid you’ll make me do this all the time, or worse-- tell people I like it,” Lucas laughed.

“Okay
, onto our next activity.”

They pulled into the massage parlor down the road. The blonde walked out and c
alled his name. He looked at Tessa’s face and knew she was a bit jealous.

“My fiancée’ will be in the room with us,” he
dragged her behind him.

“Did you enjoy that?” she said as they walked out.

“Did you?” he asked laughing.

She shook her head no.

“Yeah I got that, how about we buy some oils, and we can rub each other down sometime,” he said and kissed her.

She smiled, a
nd he saw her eye’s flash desire.

“You are feeling
better aren’t you?” he laughed.

~

They parked in front of the townhouse, got out, and started walking in the house; Lucas picked her up as he opened the door.

“Now we are going upstairs for the rest of the night,
” she covered his mouth and jumped down.

“Surprise,” they all yelled.

Lucas looked around. Ryan, Jade and baby Luke were there. Alex, Phoebe, his mother and her fiancé’, Jose and Miles and some others from the team. He smiled broadly and laughed.

“Th
anks baby,” he kissed her.

Ryan and Alex had made steaks, and Jade and Phoebe had brought shrimp and potatoes. His mother had brought enough drinks all non alcoholic and Tessa ran to the basement and grabbed the chips, breads, and dips she had made late last night.

They hung out and celebrated Lucas’s birthday and Tessa held baby Luke when he wasn’t being fed. Lucas watched her as she looked at him and smiled. She was a natural at this, and he knew their child would have the best mother in the world. She took him upstairs after his ten o’clock feeding. She rocked him and sat him in the pack n play, and then lay next to him on the bed and fell asleep with his tiny little hand wrapped around her finger. Jade and Ryan were spending the night.

“Hey baby, it’s eleven thirty,”
Lucas said quietly “Would you come down with me?”

She stood up and gently released her finger from baby
Luke’s grasp.

“Isn’t he beautiful?” She said.

“Yes he is,” Lucas smiled.

S
he took his hand and they walked down the stairs together.

They walked into the kitchen to get drinks, and there was a knock on the door. Tessa and
Lucas opened it, and Jenny and a few girls walked in.

“Miles called and invited us over,” she said.

Lucas looked at Tessa, “Because he is here it’s alright this time, but not again.”

“Did you catch that Jenny?” he asked sternly.

“Yes,” she said sarcastically.

He walked into the kitchen
, and she was annoyed, “Baby, I’m sorry.”

“I know it was
n’t you, I just hate that bitch.”

“Me too,” he
hugged her.

“Let’s get drinks to everyone, it’s almost time. Would you mind if I spit in hers?” she asked and smiled.

“I guess if you want to,” he said looking down.

“It was
a joke, that’s gross,” she giggled, and they walked into the living room.

At midnight they kissed and he held his forehead to hers, “This is where I want to be forever.”

“Me too Lucas,” he kissed her again.

They sat on the
chaise together, and everyone was talking and laughing, the party was still in full force. Tessa began to nod off. He played with her hair and kissed her head. She leaned back into him and fell asleep.

“Wow
, she can fall asleep anywhere,” Jade laughed.

“It’s great isn’t it,”
Lucas smiled as he watched her sleep.

“How are you t
wo doing?” Alex asked.

“Never better.”

Miles and the others from the team left, and so did Alex and Phoebe. Lucas’s mom gave him a kiss and kissed Tessa’s head, and they left. Jade had gone upstairs to get ready for bed.  Jenny and her girls walked into the living room.

“Ryan
-- you want to show them out,” Lucas asked sternly.

“Can we stay,” Jenny
smiled.

“No,” he said.

“Your loss,” she said and walked out.

Ryan went upstairs, and
Lucas fell asleep. Tessa woke up and looked at him, she looked around, and everyone had left. She got up and cleaned the kitchen and bathroom. She was sweeping the floor when he walked in.

“Tessa
-- it’s three in the morning what are you doing?” he yawned.

“Our house was a mess, the bathroom needed to be disinfected because there were dirty girls here and I made a breakfast
casserole for breakfast,” she said still sweeping.

He grabbed the dust pan and picked up the dirt.

"Let's go to bed," he kissed her and his hand ran up her side. She yawned and he laughed. “Let’s go to sleep”.

They lay in bed talking about baby
Luke and their baby. Tessa wanted a boy and Lucas was sure he would have a little girl.

“I hope he or she loo
ks just like you,” she kissed his nose. “Perfect.”

“No baby, just like you. And she better damn well act like you cause if not
, we are so screwed,” they both laughed.

“Lucas you’re going to be such a good D
ad,” she hugged him.

“We
’re going to be good parents together Tessa,” he said softly.

“Forever,” she said and looked in his eyes.

“No less,” he shook his head.

“Lucas I am happy I really am. I think we should tell people, screw the twelve weeks I want to share this with
everyone we love,” she smiled.

“Sounds
good, are you sure?” he smiled back, “I’ve been ready to celebrate, I was waiting on you baby”

“Sorry Lucas I just…
” he kissed her.

“I know Tessa, no more talking baby,
” he groaned and they made love.

~

She woke up two hours later with cramps. She cried out softly, and he woke up.

“Are you okay?”