Zombie Sharks with Metal Teeth (15 page)

I hate my job.

In the supply room after work I mouth a silent prayer for Danger Bob, and nod again like I’m watching his trick on the wheel.

The next morning Ronald gets to the lab before me, leaves the door chocked open. I walk in slow, trying to see everything all at once, and Ronald’s in his chair by the fridge, watching me.

“Good morning,” he says.

I shrug, tell him to tell me, please.

He’s already smiling.

It’s Danger Bob, back from the afterlife.

I take a long step back.

“He was sleeping by the door to his cage,” Ronald says.

“This isn’t Bob,” I say.

“Ask him.”

I watch his eyes after this, not sure I heard right.

“Ask Bob?”

Ronald nods.

“You could have just painted that on his back,” I say.

Ronald agrees.

“Ask him,” he says again.

I don’t want to but I do.

“Louder,” Ronald says, like it should be obvious.

“Are you Danger Bob?” I say, again, and it’s only because I’ve been here for four months now that I notice Ronald’s right hand is behind his back. His trigger finger. The vein in his neck rises with the tendons in his bicep when the mouse who isn’t Danger Bob shakes his head no, and Ronald can’t help laughing now.

There’s a little white-furred, radio-controlled servo collar around Imposter Bob’s neck, its copper leads wired into the neck musculature. So he can shake his head no.

“Quit fucking around,” Ronald says, still smiling. “I’ve got something new for us today.”

Some days I’m not sure who’s the lab mouse.

The project Ronald was working on when he hired me involved applied telekinesis. What we would do is anesthetize gophers and moles and whatever else we could buy, sever their spinal cords up near their brain stems, then try to condition them to use their own bodies as puppets, lurch across the stainless steel exam table.

The servo collars were what Ronald had to finally use when the financial backers sent their people to check on their investments. It was then that Ronald told me the secret of funding: never do enough to make money, just do enough to get people to give you more.

He thinks when I empty the red biohazard bag, I empty it into the small green medical waste dumpster in the parking lot. But I don’t. Instead I fill my pockets with dead rodents then go up onto the roof during break, lay the limp bodies in the white gravel. The hawks scream with delight, fall all around me, and take the moles and gophers and rabbits away. For the mice, because they’re white, I have to push all the white gravel away, frame them against the tar. I tried standing them up with toothpicks at first, for dignity, but finally had to just lay them on their sides, their forelegs curled up against their chests.

We’re going to hell, of course, me and Ronald. Not just for the animals we kill with truth serum and electricity and surgery, but for the birds that fall sick from the sky into the lives of ordinary people, far, far away, wherever they are

What Ronald has for us today that’s new is beyond telekinesis, beyond Danger Bob’s faux-prehensile tail.

I watch him and listen and feel my face making expressions of doubt, then curiosity, then think of a green butterfly for a while, because now he’s practicing his pitch on me. Everything bullet points, something Edison would have thought of if he’d had access to the formative experiences of Ronald’s childhood. 

Or if he’d hated mice.

The green butterfly is an angel, of course. She has the face of a girl I knew in high school.

I nod for Ronald, and for her.

What we’re doing today is removing a late-stage mouse fetus from its mother then immersing it in the oxygen rich solution left over from the experiment with the two squirrels. Immersing it in there so it can breathe.

“Nutrients?” Ronald asks, as if I’d said it.

I nod, as if I’d just been about to say it, yes.

“They’re in there,” he says, dismissing my lack of education, staring at me to be sure I get the point.

“Sorry,” I say. “Go on.”

He smiles, does.

After the mouse— I’m already calling him Zipper Boy— after the mouse is successfully transferred to his glass womb, the fish tank the squirrels had died in, too stubborn to evolve gills, after the mouse is in there, that’s when the real science begins: his arms in the long rubber gloves, Ronald will remove Zipper Boy’s cartilage skull, exposing the still-developing brain.

He touches the side of his own head to be sure I’m following, not picturing myself on the roof, holding Zipper Boy up in my palm, eyes cast down, a great, moist shadow darkening around me, the underside of her wings iridescent.

I touch my own head back, right in the temple, and Ronald stares at me, looks away.

“The
folds
,” he says, “it’s the basic mammalian
characteristic
, right? Why are they there, though?”

“So the brain can fit,” I say back.

He nods, smiles, says it again: “So the brain can fit. Because, if it didn’t fold, then the mother’s pelvis would break and there would be no rearing of the young, and it wouldn’t matter
how
smart we were,
how
many tools we could
eventually
make.”

I tell him okay.

He shrugs, like I’m challenging him. “So what do you think we could accomplish without that limitation?” he says, low, still paranoid that the bats that were delivered by accident are actually industrial spies.

I’m supposed to be catching them, but keep not doing it.

“Anything?” I say.

He nods.

“Anything,” he says back, and then for the rest of the morning I have to hold the suction tube to Zipper Boy’s head while Ronald performs minor surgery. I’m supposed to catch the blood, keep the water clear, cycle in more.

“Scuba Mouse,” Ronald says, through his mask.

I shake my head no.

Two weeks later, Zipper Boy’s brain blooms open in the tank like the enhanced pictures you see of distant, exploding galaxies.

I find myself holding my breath each morning in my car, before I walk in. It’s not enough.

By the forty-second day, the investors want to see what they’re paying for. I lay on the roof looking over the edge. Their cars pull up just before lunch. The only thing different for them about Ronald is how he’s bald now, shaved. The eye solution he uses to hide the red around the rims is his own compound. He offers it to me on a regular basis, and on a regular basis I decline.

I walk down the metal stairs in time to hear his latest pitch for time travel, how of
course
you can’t send living tissue through any kind of disintegrating field then expect it to be reassembled properly on the other end. But
inert
matter, yes. Ronald’s solution is typically elegant: the time traveler should simply offer to be killed moments before passing through the field, moments
after
his team has pushed through all the medical equipment and information brochures the people on the other end will need to revive this dead man from the future, or the past.

I see one of the investors holding his chin, nodding, thinking of the tactical uses this could provide, but when he sees the way I’m looking at him he stops, rubs his cheek.

“Don’t worry about him,” Ronald says about me.

They don’t.

Eight minutes later— the same amount of time it takes sunlight to get here— Ronald is demonstrating what they all saw last time: the modified television set he’s learned to tune the future in with. One
hour
in the future, anyway. For the area right around the specimen table. He’s not showing them the modified set so much, though, as what’s on it’s screen: the investors, all signing checks. It’s really a tape of them from last time.

“Show us why, though,” one of them says.

Why they’ll sign. Ronald smiles, nods, is already standing amid all the bent silverware before Zipper Boy’s tank, waiting for them to see it.

“Like he’s a
god?”
one of the investors says, looking around for support. Like Zipper Boy’s a god is what he’s saying. One we bring offerings to.

Ronald shushes him, his teeth together.

“I don’t think so . . . “ another investor says, staring hard at Ronald, as if reading his eyes. “You didn’t leave this for him did you, son?”

Ronald shakes his head no, his dimples sucking into a smile he’s trying hard to swallow.

“No
way
,” the third and final investor says.

Ronald shrugs, is a carnival barker now, holding his hand out for the third investor’s stainless steel, monogrammed pen.

Zipper Boy bends it into a nearly perfect circle with his unfolded mind, then, bored with it, allows it to clatter to the ground.

The milky surface of his water bubbles.

He could live forever in there.

The girlfriend I choose, because I want this all to be over but for it not to be my fault, she’s ASPCA. Militant, probably a vegetarian even. I wear leather to get her to introduce herself, then lure her to my car, to lunch, a series of dinners and movies and phone calls, until one day, not on accident, I leave an expired rodent in my right hand pocket, plan to pull it out to open my car door with, only notice it’s a mouse when its nose won’t fit into the keyhole.

The movie we see that night is about a submarine family chosen, for obvious reasons, to be astronauts. Which is all good and fine until the mother has her third child, her first in space. The amniotic fluid floats through the space station and into the ventilation system, then, with the help of alien spores or cosmic rays— a movie device— transforms the whole station into a womb in which the family gestates, emerging nine months later to look down on earth’s blue sphere, and cry, the vacuum of space wicking their tears away. Finally, the firstborn son flares the new membrane around his neck out and it catches the solar wind and the family holds hands, retreats into the outer reaches of the solar system, still together.

My girlfriend— Mandy, I think, if I heard right— cries with the aliens, holds my hand, and I hold onto the armrest.

Afterwards, by the water fountains, I try to tell her about Ronald but fail, just lead her out to the parking lot for my charade, which fails too when I open my pocket and, instead of a dead mouse, pale green butterflies flutter up around us.

Mandy starts to catch one but I stop her, and my hand firm around her wrist is the beginning of the end for us: that I would deny her that.

The next morning Ronald asks me how my experiment went?

I’m tapping vitamins into Zipper Boy’s tank when he asks it, and I’m not sure if his lips move, or if they move with the words he’s saying.

On the surface of the water, dead, is a pale green butterfly.

Love is a spoon
, Zipper Boy says to me in my head.

Across the room, Ronald waits for me to answer, to agree.

Zipper Boy’s brain is seventeen times the size of his body now.

We’re not sure what he can do if he really wants to.

The thing I notice about the silverware on the ground that afternoon is that it’s real silver. Which should be less of a challenge, really. An insult. Another thing is that it’s straight, all of it. I bend down to it, know instantly without wanting to that this is Ronald’s mother’s mother’s silverware. And that the only reason it would be straight, now, on the ground, is that Ronald brought it to Zipper Boy bent.

Across the lab, Ronald is hunched over the circuit board of the echolocation device he’s retroengineering from the dolphin head he had delivered in a cooler of ice. It cost four thousand dollars, is supposed to locate the bats for us somehow. When I opened the cooler, the dolphin was smiling. But maybe that’s all they know how to do.

I don’t care about the bats, really.

But the silverware. The swimming goggles Ronald’s wearing now, each lens sloshing with his compound.

Love is love
, Zipper Boy says in my head, like he’s finishing an argument.

Without looking at his tank I think back that he was never even
born
.

The surface of his water undulates with thought, and either he speaks back to me through Ronald or Ronald speaks back himself: “A mother’s love for her unborn young is the purest love there is,” he says. “Because it hasn’t yet fallen victim to the large eyes of infancy.”

I sweep up the bat guano until noon then climb the stairs to the roof.

Danger Bob is waiting for me. I cry into my hands, think maybe the whole world can see me up there.

“It’s okay,” Danger Bob says from behind his three-inch exhaust pipe, and to show, he scurries furiously across the white gravel, invisible until the last moment when his small body is about to silhouette itself against the low, brick-red retaining wall.

I see whiskers, the shadow of an ear, then look away.

In my pocket now is all of Ronald’s mother’s mother’s silverware. I don’t know what to do with it.

Two days later I find the first draft of the article Ronald’s writing for the neuromags. In it, Zipper Boy is Scuba Mouse, and I’ve been betrayed.

Beside me, too, I can feel Zipper Boy watching me.

It’s something Ronald’s tracked in his article— how his Scuba Mouse is now discovering his body, learning to use it, look through it. In a footnote, Ronald sketches out the helmet he’s going to build his Scuba Mouse. It’s filled with water, a failed diving bell. There will be no leash, either, no air hose, no tether. Just a mouse, teetering out into the world, wholly unaware what love is, even.

Already all the other caged rodents in the lab are dead, overflowing from the red biohazard container.

Ronald says Zipper Boy tells him it’s not murder, because they were never really
alive
.

He’s the one talking to a mouse now. I don’t tell that to him, just shrug, look away, at a bat crawling nose first down the wall, stalking a cricket.